Especially when its your babies.
so heres the scoop...Cole went for his 18 month well check and just like always he was healthy and happy as can be and then Dr.R asked (as always) "any concerns you have??" and as ALWAYS I said "Is he talking enough??"
Every well check since his 9 month check I have asked this. I ask because (not to brag by any means) Konnor was literally speaking in full sentances by 10 months, so it is really hard to know what is typical. Every time Dr. R assures me that cole is indeed fine, and that I just have a very high standard that I am holding him to.
When I asked at this past visit, he said "Steph, I honestly think he is still ok. " and I said, "OK, well I just wanted to ask because the nurse did the checklist and asked if he was putting 2 words together, and he isnt" so we of course had a discussion about it, and basically long story short, he gave me the phone number to "first steps" early intervention, and said "you are his mom, and you are entitled to do whatever you want. I am not overly concerned yet, but if you are you can always call them and have an assesment done." and then asked if he was saying ANY two words together, like "No, mama" or "bye dada" and he is not. SO he said watch him for about two more months and work with him, and ny feb or so if he isnt, then it wouldnt hurt to call and just have then come over and asses him. He said even then it may be no big deal, but of course now my mommy brain is going crazy. I just feel bad for him and I KNOW that alot of kids have an issue with speech, but there is that inevitable mommy guilt. Do I not read to him enough, did I not give him as much attention as I did konnor, etc. I could cry as I type because as him mom I know I am SO blessed that he is healty and he is the happiest littleboy ever. But then I see him and watch him and I just FEEL like he is struggling. I always hae felt it. alot of people say its just because he is the baby, and it may be. I just know that he has trouble saying ANYTHING, and while its not a major health issue, I still know that communication is what gets you through in life and I just dont want my sweet boy to struggle, or especially, be judged. =( I have no clue anymore if it IS my mommy instinct or if it is my worrying side....SO I will just do what Dr.R said and wait a few more months. and I guess If EI does come out and asses, it may still be just to ease my mind......anyway, I know that was long. Just mainly a vent for me. Hopefully some of you will have an experience with EI or somthing similar. I will keep you all posted. If ya made it this far thanks for reading!!!!
